Looking back, moving...nowhere

Blogging seems to be something nobody does anymore.
I don't enjoy texting anymore.
I only post Facebook statuses (most of the time) when I am feeling down.
I don't write poetry or lyrics.
Nothing I do really means anything anymore.
I'm just bored.
Life doesn't interest me.
I'm not unhappy or discontent,
Just bored.
All I ever want to do is sleep.
Music doesn't mean nearly as much to me as it used to.
I feel like all I'm doing is going through the motions.
There has to be more than this.
I feel like I should know when a college is where I am meant to be.
Maybe Waldorf and JBU haven't been want they could have been because I am still withdrawn.
I feel I haven't met anybody who knows the "real" me.
I tell them generic things that I tell everyone.
But nothing really meaningful.
Don't get me wrong,
I have a good group of friends here,
They just don't know the true me.
I'm not sure they ever will.
I kind of only have two options,
First, I can stay at JBU...
Take out $10,500 in loans next year,
work full-time just to pay off tuition,
And be filled with a sense of meaninglessness.
Second, I could go to DMACC,
Community college...
Something I always looked down upon (don't ask me why).
I could try to be honest with people,
But I feel like I would make the "wrong" friends that way.
I would save money though.
Instead of uppers of $35,000 in debt I would only be in debt about $20,000.
Given that $9,500 of that debt is from this year alone, that is pretty good.
No matter my decision, I still believe in God.
I just don't know where or how I will be happy and content.
I can listen to my heart or society...
But which is my heart telling me?
I know I need to pray about it,
I am.
But no response.
There is never a response.
I feel like this is one of those times when either choice will work out for good.
Choosing is so difficult.
I would ask for opinions,
But I can't let anyone make this decision or impact my thinking.
Please keep your opinions on this to yourself,
Just pray that I am able to make the right decision.
Peace guys.