College Blues

I officially hate college.
I have no motivation for anything.
I have nobody here who knows the real me,
nobody who will ever know the real me.
My friends all like to think they know so much about me,
when truth is they don't know me in the slightest.
I'm back to hanging out in my room by myself all the time.
I don't see the point in spending a ton of time with people I can never be completely myself around.
I still haven't recovered from this summer,
I doubt I will.
I haven't talked to my sister once and only talked to my brother 2-3 times.
My life in Iowa is over.
Everyone has moved on to better things
I'm stuck in a place I don't wanna be.
Unhappy.
I just don't know how to deal with things anymore.
What's the point of it all?
So I get good grades, a good job, a successful career?
I don't care for any of that.
But I guess that's all I have to strive for now.
I wish my friends here cared to know what my blog was,
cared to see who I was and who I am.
But, guess I won't have that.
They are all making new friends.
Like one of them said "Their Asher's friends you just hung out with them."
Yep that's true.
I haven't made new friends.
Just one of my friends made new friends and I'm the one straggling along.
Still have yet to spend the night at someone else's dorm.
Great college experience.